I love my kids more then I ever thought I could love anything! That being said...I'm exhausted. I know I'm a good Mom, but how can anyone live up to the title of 'Mom'.
Tanner is potty trained now. Hurray! He was actually really 'easy' to train but he demands so much time and work from me. Potty training is a lot more work for the Mom I find. He wants to entertained and played with constantly and he has started not taking afternoon naps. This means he's grumpy and tired in the evenings when I'm trying to do dinner & clean etc. I love reading to him...I really do but seriously after an hour I'm sick of it! Same goes for swinging on the swing set...He'd let me push him all day if I would! He's at a fun age and he's really a good boy I think I'm just getting old.
Reagan....what can I complain about with her? Not much! The girl is pure sunshine! I'm biased I know but what I did to get such a sweetie, I'll never know. She does help with Tanner a lot but she also has her own 'things' and I ask a lot of her with him.
I've always wanted 3-4 kids...right now though I feel very complete with the 2 I have. I do feel 'Mormon' pressure to have a big family and I hate the fact that I have a 'politically correct' family, (one boy & one girl), but are these reasons for having another? - not good ones.
My cousin Brooke wants 4 children. She has 2 now and is ?ing how she will manage it. My advice is do it while you're young and have the energy. My friend Kara, (my age), is prego with #4 and on bed rest with complete placenta previa. (Bless her heart!) Hearing what she's going through gives me no desire for more.
My Grandma has been through a lot this past week and now, has been placed in a nursing home. She has suffered several strokes and has lost a lot, (most) of her memories. It's very sad and hard to see this happen to her. I've thought a lot about her lately and one thing she told me a few years back rings in my head. She said one of her biggest regrets in life is not having more children. (She had 2 girls).
It's interesting, because I've always thought small families cultivate closer relationships because they rely on each other more...there being less of them to turn to. I really don't know how I feel about this theory now.
Anyways, food for thought...
1 comment:
I wondered what happened to "just jenn"
I can relate to how you're feeling. I had a hard time with my final decision on three kids...I still have my sad days. But for the most part, I find it fun. I feel like I can enjoy my kids growing up and doing things...without chasing around little people! Or being mental by having another baby. I wanted another, but I knew it wouldn't have been the best choice for my family.
My grandparents said the same thing...and my parents...but only AFTER their kids were grown. I think most older people think that way.
I DO think that less kids means closer relationships...I have proof of that which I should not get into on this blog.
AND I look forward to the next life, when I can have all the kids I want, with no problems doing so. I think it's fine to say "okay, that's enough" and then just sit back and try to enjoy the process of your kids growing up.
I dont think that you get a bigger cookie for having more kids...I know some women who think that way. They know more, will get more, are better people...etc. WHATEVER!!!!!
Like I said, I still have my sad days...I miss things about the baby phase....but most of the time I'm comfortable...finally. It's a process!
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